Monday, April 16, 2012
Master.....of self sabotauge
Why, why, why do I keep doing this to myself??? I start off so strong, lose weight, then bam......I fall off the wagon. Its getting pretty pathetic how this occurs with regularity. I get to the point where I start having self doubt the moment I begin (for the umpteenish time) losing weight. I get that little voice that tells me I really can't do it.
I may have shared this in the past, but growing up, I was a skinny kid. Long skinny limbs. Even after the birth of my first 2 children, I still was down to my pre-pregnancy weight in no time at all. I was the girl who could eat anything and not have it affect her. And exercise?? Yeah, I would work out here and there, but not with any regularity.
A year or so before becoming pregnant with my 3rd child, I started noticing a little weight creeping on. I attributed it to my sedentary job and I started watching what I ate a little better and at that point I started working out with a little more regularity.
After the birth of my 3rd child, I have yo-yo'd with my weight. I have gained and lost the same 15 lbs for years now. I am now at the heaviest weight that I have been in my life.....more than when I was fully pregnant with my son who was 9 lbs 4 oz. And it sucks. I have a closet full of clothes that I cant wear. My self esteem has taken a nose dive, and does so especially when I go off course. I need to really make myself accountable. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Today I did 30 minutes on the stationary bike and could hardly handle it.....2 weeks ago I was doing an hour easily.....hate how easily I get out of shape. Please, if you took the time to read this, please try to keep me accountable. My goal for this week is to work out 5x week at least 1/2 hour per session. Ask me if I worked out. Obviously I cant keep myself motivated. I even made a Ilist of rewards for myself at certain mini goals (this was about 6 weeks ago.....I was almost at 10 lbs lost, then I gained it back over the holiday).
I really need to just stick with it. No excuses. Plenty of people are tired and they still get up and work out. Plenty of people have kids and find time to work out. Plenty of people work full time and off shifts and still prepare healthy nutritious dinners. NO MORE EXCUSES
My goal next Monday is to be down 1.5 lbs.........
I WILL DO IT
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You can do it! It is so hard, we are our own worst enemies. It is rough, especially when stuck in a rut.
ReplyDeletethanks. I find myself in a lot of this season of Biggest Loser
ReplyDeleteYou can do this! I know what you mean before losing weight I weighed as much as I did when I was 9 months pregnant (all 3 of my pregnancies I ended at almost the exact same weight, or would have with the 3rd one but she was born early). I post on the C25K too with my word press profile, but it's me Kathy from PJs and Facebook. :-)
ReplyDeleteWe'll keep each other motivated because I am trying to train for a half marathon and keep losing motivation. UGH! Keep going! Think of how good you'll feel without the excess weight!